-sophisticated

2006-05-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE.

START AFRESH

2006-05-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

thanks people
i'm alright
but guess i'll be away for now
be back soon.
( :

2006-05-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

Dear sihui,

SMILE!

-birdie

2006-05-12T01:41:00.000+08:00

one month ago
she was alone
one month since then
she was still alone
and one month from now
she will still be alone.

2006-05-11T21:13:00.000+08:00

I LOVE SHOPPING WITH XINER!
tho it was kinda rushy. ( :
hugs.

aquamarine was awesome.
RAYMOND!
darn nice
sweet and touching.
( :

spent 100 bucks today
but it worth it.
satisfied.
( :

i screw up my oral
ms latimer was really nice
but i'm just lousy.
stupid conversation topic
made me so emotional.
shall learn to speak english fluently.
(:

2006-05-10T14:46:00.000+08:00

yes yes
u're the prettiest
everybody else is ugly
everyone knows that
so stop crticising others.
its making you ugly instead.
( :

screwed up amaths big time.
i promise to start loving amaths from now on.
( :

oral w ms latimer tml
good luck sihui.
pray that she doesn't rmb how badly i treated her last time.
no no, its not that bad
*innocent smile*
thats what i'm capable of.
=D

2006-05-07T21:01:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed
i'm bored
i'm angry
i'm sad..
..with AMATHS

@#$%^&* subject.
but shan't disappoint miss tay
since i managed to stay in 4/3 amaths
shall glue myself to my chair later
and stop walking arnd the house looking for sweets.
=D

alright, smth came into my mind.

went out w eug to buy his specs ytd
and we came across this specs adriano wore.
the transparent and white one.
then eug say he ate w him before in primary school
guess what?
they were having a competition to see who can eat the most of noodles in terms of bowls
darn hilarious okay?
primary school kids competition
haha
and adraino won. =D

i love my mum
just a call
and she came all the way to the bus stop to fetch me
cos' it was raining
and i didn't wna get wet.
LOVE HER SO MUCH.
(:

2006-05-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY.
(:

2006-05-04T19:24:00.000+08:00

i wanted to be patient
and load my pictures into friendster
but i gave up.
=D

bye singapore, i'm going overseas, hopefully not..

2006-04-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

time flies.
2 yrs have passed.
so many things took place
so many things changed.
my mind is taken up with reminiscences of the past
i couldn't sleep last night
i kept thinking and thinking.
i seemd to have put away all bad memories
and keep all the nice ones
asking me to forget the 1 yr plus,
sry, i can't do it.
5 months have past
we have distanced a lot.
if keeping a distance helps,
then leave it this way.
( :

3oth April 2004.

sorry if this sounds fake
sorry if i'm behaving like a bitch.
but i'm not bothered about what others think anymore.
( :

-i cried
i don't know
i know i shouldn't be thinking about all this
i hope i made the right choice...
i don't feel that real anymore
but life still goes on.
take care,
my dear friend.

2006-04-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

got her a cake w xiner and jiamin.

i'm hungry

i wna eat the cake alrdy..

but i'm nice,
shall wait for her to return home.
=D

2006-04-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

i feel left-out.

2006-04-18T19:24:00.000+08:00

we got a gold as well as the championship. =D
1 year ago on the 14th April
we got a gold for our SYF
and now,
we've got a gold and the championship.
which also marks an beautiful ending to my 4 years as a band member.

in this 4 years
many events took place.
the most significant was my transfer to cornet section
it changed my life in band completely
to get fantastic juniors.
all the fun i got during sectionals

how foolish of me
to have the thought of quitting band in sec 2
how foolish of me
to have the thought of quitting the MUSE festival

i'm gna miss everything in band
miss playing my cornet
miss my jnrs, all the fun we had during sectionals
miss ting ting's company, her motivation
miss weiyao's jokes
miss the saxes
their bapok-ing
miss doing make-up for junhong
miss the UFOs
fail to promote, promote to failures
so many things i'll miss

now, its my turn to step down..
and turn my priority to my studies.

I LOVE YOU, UFOs AND JNRS. =D

2006-04-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

THATS BEN!
ISNT HE CUTE?!
BEANIE!
=D

2006-04-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

grins
i've taken a picture w the cute clarinet guy!
omg
and thanks to those who helped me
now so many bandies from new zealand thinks i like him
and met my FATHER-IN-LAW
darn awkward
haha
but i've got the picture w him.
BEANIE. =D

2006-04-11T19:55:00.000+08:00

YES/NO

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINER!
MUACKS. <3

2006-04-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

i love my sec 2 jnrs!
whole bunch of them
so nice to hang out with. =D
others claim that they have great jnrs
SO DO I. =D

i hope they are reading
understandable right, kongyong?

2006-04-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

maybe i shouldn't judge by one's past
accept them for who they are
now.

sometimes
ignorance is bliss
i wish i never came across it.
i would rather you to lie all the time
than to be honest and lie at the same time.
it makes me wonder
wonder when its the truth you're telling me.
it makes me wonder
wonder to praise you for your honesty
or to be hurt by the truth.

2006-04-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

i feel cheated
i really do.

2006-04-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

how would you feel if something you worked hard for is taken away?
how would you feel if you're always the one who has to sacrifice?
how would you feel if this is how your journey ends?

yeah right, i'm feeling so fcuking happy down here can?

2006-04-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder
i wonder if i made the right choice

our differences got us together

and tore us apart.

of all the things I was ever planning for
this was the last thing on my mind
to
forget
~~you~~

no doubt
i had fun today
but we're just miles apart...

you could ask my heart

but like a jigsaw puzzle

it's been torn all apart

i'm sry.
goodbye,
my friend.

2006-03-29T18:45:00.000+08:00

esplanade performance was great
took lotsa photos
shall wait for them to send me. : )

i'm really proud of myself.
i didn't screw up my solo
had solophobia since last yr when i screwed up my solo then.
but i've grown out of that.
thanks to those who wished me good luck
and to those who made me believe i can do it.
and xiner for the big bear hug before the solo.
yeps
i'm not regretting. : )

thanks for the roses
esp from you
love it. <3

shall post the pictures when i get them all. : )

mdm hsueh rawks big time : )
she spoke up for me when i was late today.
and she showed the class a video she used to teach her daughter
like sasame street kind.
and then theres a part where theres 3 lil girls munching oranges
mdm hsueh: ure guess the girl look like who
the fast ppl: aa, sihui leh.
the others: orrhh..sihui!!!
all turned and look at me.

lol
but i don't think that girl looks like me.
nvm, i look like ang moh. =DD
mdm hsueh is really cute!

special thanks to ting ting:
yeps, my grass will always be greener from now on.
and i'll nv regret next year when i come back
u'll see a fantastic smile on my face. : )

ting ting still gave me hw to do.
its great to have a cousin like her
isnt it?
<3

2006-03-24T22:29:00.000+08:00

suddenly
i wonder
how the sec fours of every year cope with everything
and i mean seriously
everything
studies
band
syf
and other commitments that they have

i will be like the sec fours every year
who make it through everything
and come out smiling.
((:

YEAAA!

2006-03-21T20:39:00.000+08:00

god.
i think i'm getting darn high
i found myself back
WELCOME BACK SIHUI. : )

i think my lips are rotting after that magical touch
for those who know.
: )

2006-03-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

i'm truely amazed at my own courage.
i did something i never knew i could do.
and i'm not gna regret it. =D

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DARLINGEVAN AND DARLING MEI:
thx for telling me not to regret. : )
i did it.
YAY!

sometimes its really feels good to get something off your chest.
theres nth more that i can ask for.
: )
a lill happiness is more than enough to forget all unhappiness.
: )
BUT I'M SHY LAH...
haha.

2006-03-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

omg
getting sick 2nd time this week
god has been so nice to me
only allowing me to get sick during the hols

shopping was great today with darlingevan
who were having a lil' trouble as to what to wear
to impress JM and CMM.
haha.
but they werent there
not even the short one.
bah.
we bought mostly the same stuff.
love our watches. =D
and flip flops
and yes
we have so much in common
we even thought of going overseas to study
great day today.
thanks darlingevan.
<3
take care
don't fall sick.
: )

2006-03-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to feel anym.
disappointment.
my life is all screwed up
this hols is the worst i've ever had
hello
just take a break from everything can?
i'm sick and tired of all this.

got the urge
to jump down
end everything.
but i
cant
its selfish.
cant get it off my head.

i'm feeling so fcuking shitty.

2006-03-15T14:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLINGEVAN!
[since ure calling me darlinghui]

band was monstrous
head was spinning
had to stop playing.
got home
38.3
i wonder why i nv fall sick on schooldays
but fall sick on hols.
how sickening.

but still went to meet up w darlingmei and darling evan.
JM and CM²
gng to mccafe mre often.
thats what makes going to JP more momentous.
: )
cant wait for fri/sat.
anyw, heres our photos at MCCAFE.
attempted to take JM and CM²'s pic
but fail miserably.
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candid shot.
but i'll post it anyway.
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all done my daarlingmei.
love my darlings, always.
<3
URE BETTER READ THIS! : )

2006-03-13T19:58:00.000+08:00

you'll never understand until
the day you learn to respect people
and treat them as
human beings.
human beings treated
with respect are not meant to be
spat in the face with insults
or mockery.
not to be laughed
at when they are down,
not
to be treated like dirt when
you feel like it,
not to be taken
lightly when they are telling
you whats in their hearts,
not to be slapped in their faces
with vicious words.

treat your friends with respect
and not as a stepping stone
to other friends
who
are
more
popular.

2006-03-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

to the one:

I hope that you still remember the promise you made last year.
Take care.
myal. : )
<3

2006-03-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

thx for the comments left by all. : )

sometimes in life
its difficult
to appreciate when others are criticising
to move on when others are demoralising
to motivate when others are discouraging

i'm still learning : )

2006-03-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

mdm hsueh just called and talked to me.
: )
shes really understanding.
made up my mind.
i'll not be taking part in the competition if possible. : )

2006-03-09T21:38:00.000+08:00

today is one of the days i really think that i cant carry on.
i'm stressed
hw are piling up
and i cant meet the deadline.
was on the verge of tears.
imagine that.
since when was i so solicitous about meeting deadlines?
since when was i so into studying?
perhaps i cant make it afterall.
wish i could go back to the old sihui
when hw undone was alright
and to lead her own happy life.

compare compare compare.

its screwing me up.

when will this ever stop?

wish i could go overseas right away...

2006-03-08T18:44:00.000+08:00

everything's been going down for me lately,
im just hoping for a miracle really.

discarded;

i walk alone

i eat alone

i play alone

i shop alone

i cry alone

i slp alone

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i die alone

that feeling sucks.

somehow...
i wish school hols never come...
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2006-03-04T14:51:00.000+08:00

I was proven wrong.
Things are not what I expected,
and pain comes in along the way.
Those who really observed may realised I've been drawing zillions of smiley faces and typing tons of it in my sms.
pretence pretence and pretence.
I really hate pretending to be happy,
making others laugh.
Putting on a show,
like a clown.
But deep inside,
it hurts so much.

Then I realised, it is when we learn to smile with the pain beneath that we realise that its the pain that is keeping us going. You look back and you realise that it was you who chose the pain. Choices do have consequences. We live in a world of games and we are all simply players in a gigantic world, or perhaps just a lil' pawn and is being moved around. And at the end of the day, its not up to whether I win or I lose, its how I've played the game. I may have lost, but I've played the game well, and I'm contented. Someone else may have won, but happiness is not his/her reward. We are always constantly in search of happiness, but it is when we missed out on it that we realise that happiness never left. When we learn to let the past go and look to the future, the future looks to us too. But nevertheless, happiness goes as fast as it came, it just can't be acquiescent and stays on forever. Perhaps, the amount of pain equals to the amount of happiness we get. When the pain is over, happiness leaves as well...

2006-02-28T03:57:00.000+08:00

THANKS EVERYONE!

had a blast today.
wasnt expecting so many to rmb my bday. : )
thought only a handful would remember.
thanks to all especially those who msged me in the middle of the night and stil fails to wake me up. =D

U MAKE MY DAY! : )

especially the cake from my besties and dears.
what a way to chase me away from the class
but i'm really touched. : )

and to all who sent me bday greetings and presents:
THANK YOU! <3

AND THOSE WHO HIT ME 16 TIMES OR MORE! [ting ting hor?]

It was after today did I realise I do have people who remembered me. :)
It was really heart-warming to know that.
Sometimes in life,
its good enough know that there is at least one person who cares about you.
I'm proud to say I do have a couple of such friends. : )
I've got fantastic friends
I've got fantastic juniors
what's there to ask for?
life is no longer a dread. : )
I thought today was a dreadful day
but I was proven wrong.
the excitement I've had today.
ponning.
cool.
no more sneaking into NC16 shows.
no more playing pool sneakily.

2006-02-27T12:12:00.000+08:00

wasnt feeling exactly happy today.
cant feel the happiness.
same old shit goes on.

and my mood lifted when i got home
saw a parcel on the table
realising its for me,
i sat down and open it.
immediately,
i broke down.
it was from baoling
was really touched
she actually went through the trouble to post the parcel
really love the presents.
thank you
baoling jie.
"what are sisters for?"
: )

wish i never have to regret..
but i regret not cherishing those who meant a lot to me.
these are the ones who were there for me, by my side.
though we don't talk much,
you still remembered what i like.
sorry for all the times when i have to cancel our outings
its been 4 long years. : )
and our friendship shall remains.
a tribute to baoling. : )

2006-02-26T14:33:00.000+08:00

Somehow, I'm not looking forward to it.
i can paint the picture in my mind alrdy.
a lil' thought crashed into me.
i should be contented with what i have now
i shouldnt be asking for more
its been a while since i feel this bittersweet regret tugging in my mind telling me how life could have been better if i chose the other road.
down that usual road of no return.
and when things end,
there it goes.
good bye.
world.
thats exactly how i'm feeling this moment.
i don't wna be alone.

my biggest regret was coming into css
where study is the 'in' thing here
and going out is alway the last thing they will do.
i suppose i ended up in the wrong place afterall.
so whats the big deal about BLUE uniform?

2006-02-26T01:57:00.000+08:00

went out with UFOs ytd.
shopping and steamboat.
got some really NICE videos with me. =D
didn't manage to get the stuff me and ting want tho.
got ting a pig from the blind lady. lols
haha. think my scream echoed arnd the place yea.
: )

went shopping again today.
: )

2006-02-24T17:18:00.000+08:00

People asked "what do you want for your birthday?". The first thing I thought of was a birthday cake from my family. I suppose it was the hardest present I'll probably receive. Since my birth till now, I suppose I only got less than 6 birthday cakes in total. I not being materialistic or trying to gain any sympathy, just a birthday cake from them will do. I still remembered once when I was 7, my parents asked me to choose between 1oo bucks or a birthday cake...I chose the cake. Perhaps I was dumb then, but it was the best birthday I've ever had. This year, if I were to choose again, I would still choose the cake. : )

just came home from dear's hse.
we were lying on the bed..watching geisha.
love her loads. <3
I MISS W.A.N.T!

less than more 12 hrs..
i'll be meeting the UFOs.
excited.
: )
bugis and steamboat. :D

2006-02-20T08:35:00.000+08:00

happiness-

Everyone wants it
Everyone craves for it.
Unfortunately,
not everyone finds it.
Those that find it,
Rarely get a chance to keep it.

i wish i could lift the albatross for you. : )

2006-02-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

i thought things had gone better
but i'm wrong.

thx to all who were by my side when i'm down.
especially this week.
love ya loads.

and to the one:
yes. we are still good friends : )
and we will break the rules tgt.
friends forever.

2006-02-18T13:32:00.000+08:00

why cant people just mind their own business and not intrude into other people's affairs?
it just hurts to hear it from you.

I can't identify who am I now.
I've been hiding and avoiding
afraid of what might happen if I stood out.
Its time I face myself.
I hate the fact that I'm pretending and making excuses all the time.
pretending to be happy
faking all the smiles I have
making excuses for everything I did.
I don't owe anyone any reason for whatever I'm doing.
theres no need to explain whatever I'm doing.
I thought making excuses make me more secure and confident
but I'm wrong...
It just make things worst.
Its time I face myself.
to pull away the thick ugly masks I've got
to be able to open up to the person that has been with me all this while
the person in the mirror.
Its time I face the person I see in the mirror...

I thought I could have you as the closest confidant
but then I realise
ppl arnd you are much closer than I am to you
I've been wrong all this while.
thx for waking me up...

thx for being there with me all this while, w/o you, i would have given up long ago.
thx. : )

2006-02-10T15:14:00.000+08:00

Just came back from the Adam Khoo workshop. I've got nice trainers: Gary, Danny and Wayne. Patient people. Yeah, its sort of motivating and it really helped me along the way. What inspired me the most was the instructor Gary, he is really trying his best to show the funny side of him by telling us jokes and hiding all the sadness he had. I mean, I can never do that.

And come to think of it, how many of us actually can keep in contact with your friends since Sec 1 and still continuing meeting up constantly though all are working adults of 24? Danny did. Its really something I wish to have, a group of friends that i really knew for very long and still being able to have fun w/o feeling weird.

I told my friend this, "I'll never cry, stupid workshop, if I happens to cry, my surname is not Tan". And i cry. Lucky my surname IS not TAN. =D As Gary was telling us about the 3 doors, i cried. I cried at myself, my Mum and Dad. Jiamin told me that she couldn't really hear me cry until the door the to my Dad. I'm really feeling guilty for raising my voice and him and hating him. I'm sorry.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY

I LOVE YOU DAD.

I thought I never have the courage to give them the letter, but I did. Though I wasn't given any hug or consolation by them when i cried, I'm really proud that i actually had the courage to hand them the letter myself. The weird thing is, I was still smiling when I'm approaching them, but the moment i reached them, my tears just came down. Perhaps, its the guilt that I'm feeling...

I'M FEELING SO ~~BLOODLY~~ GUILTY.

but I think my parents feel guilty too. =D

2006-02-08T12:35:00.000+08:00

As people grew older
Their respect for others changed
Their attitude changed
Or is it just me?

But c'mon, no matter how much you dislike that person, its too much to insult that person or hit him/her. Is there a need to shout vulgarities for no ~~fucking~~ reason and in the middle of nowhere to show how cool you are? Show respect for people, especially girls. They have feelings too. Stop critising people with yourself being ignorant to how inferior you are compared to them. At least others know their limit to the joking. Your jokes, on the other hand, had became an insult. It irritating for me to see people having to "laugh" at your joke on them or rather, a remark that has twisted to become an insult. You tarnish others' reputation by exaggerating the whole truth. Yes yes, the truth is in the whole shit, but there is always inconsistencies in your so-called truth. Stop bringing up the past and repeating your wonderful truth to all around you. They know for themselves. LOSER. You don't gain friends like that.

ahhhs. i feel so much better. =D
i've cautiously planned what i'm buying with my ang baos money:

pencil case
get my watch repaired or get a similar one
bag
jumper
ipod mini

who wna do shopping with me?

XINER AND TING. I'VE UPDATED. =D

2006-01-22T14:23:00.000+08:00

i think i've missed it...

2006-01-19T09:31:00.000+08:00

I used to have a friend, who doesnt have any ulterior motive. But she has changed. She became somebody who tries to destroy friendship. She became somebody who doesnt give a thought about others' feelings. She became somebody who is trying to win in everything. She became somebody who pissed my bestie off. She became another person, somebody i didn't know.

We have all became her alternative friends unconsciously...

2006-01-17T10:12:00.000+08:00

I'm still feeling so out of place. I don't seem to fit into anything, anywhere. I wonder what i'm gna be w/o them.

Give me a reason to wake up in the morning.

sometimes i wish i never knew you

2006-01-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

i'm in huge debt.
the constant lack of money is a pain in the ass.
nvm. i'm gna settle my debts soon.

recess w/o money is really nauseating. its rather awkward to keep borrowing money. i cant stop myself from not eating. haha. but don't worry, i'm gna get back my money soon, no point avoiding me. =D

i'm desperately in need of a new specs. blurred vision sucks big time. alright, i'm STILL in debt.

its kinda ridiculous, but i just went to apply for a job.
money issue. : )

just realised. its friday the 13th. =D

2006-01-10T13:57:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time, there lived a self-proclaimed fatman and his daughter. The daughter was the most filial girl ever and yet the father NEVER agree to that. Poor little girl, getting all the "niaoing" from her daddy when she was always so obedient =D. Her father also suan her all the time and still getting away from it by a mere "sorry". The daughter had a blog and her father happened to tag quite a few days ago and suan-ed her daughter for not replying his tag the whole afternoon. For the above excuse, the father slapped his daughter on her shoulders twice.
"Ouch!" the daughter cried even before her father reached her.
"How dare you scream before I hit you?!" the father yelled back at her. With that, he slapped her hard and kicked her.
The daughter had had enough. She had enough of her father scaring her from the back, poking her face and goes "haahaa".
But despite all the above, the daughter still loved her father very much. =D

THE END!

alright..its getting lame.

2006-01-07T12:47:00.000+08:00

I think i'm really pathetic getting posted to other classes for chemistry and amaths. So much for my i-will-never-skip-school aspiration. Should i have to leave for amaths, i'm gna drop it. amaths is horrible enough and i doesn't want to go to a class i dislike for it. Sorry xiner, made you can't concentrate in class cos' of me.

If i can stay in class for amaths, i swear i gna score for it. We shall see when amaths common test comes. =D

Comeon, i think the school really understand my needs. School actually starts at 830 on monday. How thoughtful the teachers are, they must have knew that i needed the extra slp. : )

Ask me how was school this week.

Its totally #$%$#*!#%^&*&@#.
in short,
it totally sucks.

Its not the load of homework but somehow i feel so out of place and weird. Going to school was never so dreadful, its horrible i tell you. Every morning i gta convince myself that it just another few hrs of chanting. And guess what? Its only the first week of school.

2006-01-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

its only the first week of school and i'm dying alrdy. fancy being late on the 2nd day of school and getting a demerit point on the same day and i'm alrdy falling aslp in class.

let's see. i've got two weird teachers: a philosopher and a robot.

and the freaking teachers actually went count the number of days to Os.
well, it 297 days. >.<

i will survive.

2006-01-03T14:01:00.000+08:00

had a band concert in school
i screwed up the solo.
anyway. here are some photos taken frm xy.

most of the snrs came back. (:

current cornet family plus benjamin. ( :

with the kl band. they're good. the girl beside me is only 13. woah. the indian girl is really irritating but cute. haha

me and xinyue. that's the card i gave her for her audition.

the batch of 2001, 2003 and 2005. :)

aft the performance with the saxes.

its tiring to upload pictures.

i played pool for the first time. hah.

happy new year people. ( :
enjoy shopping with xiner. <3

2005-12-23T07:08:00.000+08:00

i repeatedly reminded myself not to go there. but somehow, i will end up there. reading things i ~~doesn't~~ never wna know.

there's a hot topic arising:
"have you done your holiday homework?"

ive been hearing it like for don't know how many times.

i'm not intending to do. : )

jiayou ppl.

american elegy.
gawd.
AIR AIR AIR.
jiay sihui.

2005-12-14T15:59:00.000+08:00

i,m pissed.

motivating people?
NO
What we need are lessons on how not to de-motivate.

an apology. i found myself not enthu and seems to be affecting all those arnd me.
did i?

anyway.
benji is really good.
woah.

i,m meeting evan and mei soon.
excited.
miss them
3 in a million.
[w].a.n.t

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAOLING.
<3

2005-12-13T10:09:00.000+08:00

yes. i no longer like to see happy couples.
i,ll take out a gun and shoot em all.

then i realise..
i like watching romance movies cos' its the only time i can watch happy couples without feeling jealous half the time.

but i don,t really like those lovey dovey movies..

happy couples are sweet, ain,t they?

self-contradicting?

slap me awake somebody..

i wanted to tell you..but i held back.

2005-12-10T13:00:00.000+08:00

Date: 10-12-2005
Time: 7:30pm
Place: Lucky Plaza

: )

2005-12-08T03:12:00.000+08:00

ouch.
it hurts.
liar.

2005-12-08T02:12:00.000+08:00

here im.
declaring my status of independence.
nth gna bring me down.

2005-12-04T14:38:00.000+08:00

when things are not happening according to how i want it to be

i make things happen.

now tht things are happening,

i chose to run away from it.

when i chose to face it,

its gone.

( :

2005-12-02T13:05:00.000+08:00

birdie here!
i've hacked into sihui's account!
no la. she gave me her password

meet her today.
she's red like lobster
very red
and her stitch is cute i suppose
she's lazy to post
and i'm here to help
birdie rocks of cos.
=)

cheer up sihui!
birdie was here!

2005-12-01T08:46:00.000+08:00

i extracted my extra teeth
: )
the most painful part was the injections
3 injections.
oww.
and the hole was too big and the dentist gotta stitch it back.
couldn't feel anything. x)
lucky my mom was there.
next week going again to remove the stitch and extract another one.
...
my conversation with the dentist

dentist : hmm..quite difficult to extract. maybe i'll have to cut open it a lil
me: !!!
dentist: i try not to cut first..if still cannot then straight away x-ray and cut open hor
me: !!! orrh..
dentist: nah..eat this medicine first *gets ready for the injection*
me: *watch in horror as i swallow the medicine*
me: *lies back*
dentist: *start the first and second injection*
me: *tears*
dentist: *started hitting my teeth and gum* pain anot?
me: abit
dentist: *third injection*
dentist: (heh heh) and proceed to extracting the teeth
me: *feels nth at all : ) *
dentist: ok done! *shows me the tooth*
me: huh? so fast?
dentist: wah, the hole so big..i'll need to stitch it back
me: !!! lemme see the hole! mirror?
me: *looks into mirror* (wah..really big hole)
dentist: (HEH HEH HEH) *started stitching*
me: ...
dentist: done! next week come back to extract the other tooth and to remove your stitch
me: ...

anyway, the tooth is bloody long.
next time i'll put the photo here.
its still bleeding..

2005-11-30T11:20:00.000+08:00

bbq on sunday was fun.
and i lied to xiner!
x)
i bet the soccer ball love me loads

and im getting sickier and sickier.

i wish i were normal..like everyone else.
i've found one..
..but i lack fivethousand.

2005-11-26T11:56:00.000+08:00

ytd was a total shit.
hey come on.
even tingting noticed it.
and what was that suppose it mean?
ain't i supposd to get a lil respect at least?
it seems like all my effort were not recognized
and that i'm transparent.
fugly bastard.
this time i've had enough.
it happens everytime.
and ytd was the most prominent already.
this is it.
anyway
why should i care?
this have been happening for the past six months.

and power can change people alot. when i says alot, it really means ALOT. and you just pissed everyone off.

2005-11-24T06:18:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to my favourite senior!

: )

2005-11-23T15:24:00.000+08:00

"when was the last time i ever broke down?"

how annoying
when someone keeps doing something else in front of you..
i always dream of something so unrealistic...
and it will never come true

one moment i was so looking forward
the next i was having second thots
how nice it is.
but i still thank you for that
( :

watched harryp. yest
it was 130 went we bought the tix for the 6pm show
and we hard a lil trouble spending the time
so we decided to play hide-and-seek
( :
so exciting.
SNG WY, its not that my legs are short that i ran slow. i merely let you run ahead..first x)

imagine i can smile unknowingly looking at the photos
how scary.
how fickle-minded im.

and right now, i'm having a lil trouble getting use to it
but i'll be fine.

life still goes on...

and my entry today is soo un-linked.

2005-11-16T15:27:00.000+08:00

i've learnt smth today.
HARD WORK DON'T PAY OFF.
maybe it does pay off for the rest out there.
but it definitely won't and never will for me.
im utterly disappointed in myself.

It seems as tho im invisible and you just said that deliberately. Your criticism were SO explicit. You hate me and so do I. Too bad you can't mark me down today. At least I TRY. Perhaps I should consider becoming a part-timer, or i should just quit my post. I mean, if I doesn't make a difference, why not?

i tried hard and got disheartened.
it's hard to psych out the your thinking
and im nt gna do that.
i tried so hard and got so far..in the end..it doesn't matter.. AT ALL.

2005-11-15T07:43:00.000+08:00

im looking for a job.
life will be boring if w/o money during the hols.
and i'll be going job haunting with my dear evan and ah mei.
which means we can hang out more.
how nice. : )
and my dear kx gna be a superstar soon.
yeas..go support her.
and i'll be the friend of a superstar.
alright..
its still early.
stop dreaming.

ahh..stupid entry.

i'm just self-entertaining with all my fantasy.

i love my imaginary friend.

: )
life's a bitch.

2005-11-13T11:40:00.000+08:00

im damn bored la.

sickness sucks.

nobody wanna go out with me.

its stupid to fall sick during the holidays.

im stupid.

but i had a wonderful morning.

2005-11-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

i guess i'm just disappointed
to read that.
as much as i try.
perhaps im trying too hard.
and all is just my own illusion.
its time to forget.
((:

I've been a real fool all this while. Thank you so much for that. You've hurt me too much, lying to me. I hope I'm wrong this time, but I guess I'm not. Thank you. Let's just be friends. : )
I appreciate all your sweet talks, but this time, I will not be taken in anymore.

I hate being unimportant
when i did do my job
and when my effort is not recognise
it just sucks.
I HATE THAT FEELING!

2005-11-11T04:01:00.000+08:00

Two days ago, on monday, it was a fine day with the sun shining brightly. The "elegant", spiderwoman, Peppermint Patty and Marcie was on a adventure on the beautiful vintage bus, 187. Marcie was having her first adventure with the 3 other heroines. The "elegant" was standing towards the inner end of the vintage bus followed by Peppermint Patty, Marcie and Spiderwoman. They were happily talking about what would happen should they fall, Spiderwoman would definitely die.

Then, the vintage bus braked. Many people fell! The "elegant" was fast enough to grip onto the seat (but I don't think it looks elegant. hehe). Peppermint Patty fell, poor Marcie who was about to grab onto something for support was knocked down by Patty and she fell too. Actually Spiderwoman should fall down too, but as her name suggest, she quickly hold onto the seat and swang aroung, and she's saved! The "elegant" helped Patty up whereas the Spiderwoman helped Marcie up. But when everybody recovered from the fall, Marcie still had a lil' trouble standing up and remained on the floor, for which she said that her bag was heavy cos' she's too HARDWORKING (omg). But in the end she still managed to stand up.

Then the 4 heroines were laughing about the fall and the big, fat monster came in, the DUA BUI! He was laughing at the fall just now too and don't even know how to control. What a big fat thing. Anyway, when he left, the 4 heroines joked about the consequences if the one who fell was DUI BUI. He would definitely caused the whole bus to collapse.

*the above is based on true story : ) *

alright.
i got one star.
and i refused to go today.

anyway, don't say i pon school today
i'm really sick.
sihui don't pon school. :)

I MISS MEI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

2005-11-04T12:52:00.000+08:00

something weird is happening
every says my fonts are too small and cursive
but i don't see it
anyway, did something to it already
comments please

anyway.
been going out with kx these 2 days
oww..
my legs are tired.
but i love shopping.
( :

2005-11-01T11:13:00.000+08:00

deleted the previous post
guess it was too misleading.
: )

Ure right. Why should it be that a moment of misunderstanding, mistake end up in this state? People do make mistakes right? And they do deserve a second chance. To be honest, I wouldn't bear to end everything just like that. But guess its just too late. Everyone is giving up already, theres nothing left. I never know when you will believe her again and I don't know if this will happen once more. And I know now is that never gna be the same again.

I wouldn't say I'm ~~perfect~~. I do lie and bitch around. But if the truth is really distorted, there's nothing I can do. I'm in the wrong for telling what I'm not suppose to say yet. I regretted that as because of that, things start going out of hand. I did that as a form of gratitude since you were there to help me when that thing happened. Truth doesn't remain anymore and more lies and fallacies came in. There must be a certain level of truth in it, but it may be may be intercepted wrongly.

I'm not particularly pointing at anyone. But just an elucidation of the whole thing. I doesn't want to go on pursuing on who's right and who's in the wrong. Cos' i definitely know that I am not 100% right. And I doesn't want anymore misunderstanding from my blog entries. : )

And i seriously do not hate anyone, perhaps just avoidance. All thanks to birdie, someone who doesn't wish to take the credit. Thank you, birdie. : )

All the best to you, you and you.
Take care
Thanks to you and you for being part of my life.
: )

2005-10-31T07:18:00.000+08:00

went towning with xinyue n tingting ytd
was late for half an hr
and poor xy had to stand and walk for me
legs practically breaking.
went cineleisure, heerens, paragon, far east, pacific plaza, suntec
i really spent alot..
oh wells..

after that we met jiahua
made him embarrassed by more shopping
x)

anyway.
the band concert was really nice
like jingni said..
we gain more than her.
cos' theres more featuring on cornets : )

should i?

2005-10-26T12:00:00.000+08:00

i miss w.a.n.t
i miss evan
i miss mei
i miss kexin
i miss baoling
i miss tigger

[w].a.n.t
three in a million.
muahhs. <3

2005-10-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

beaching wasnt that fun on sat
given that i wasnt feeling well throughout.
but it was still fun.
how contradicting. x)

now, i know
there are worst things that can happen to you:
1) waking up like 4+ in the morning to vomit
2) bad diarrhoea for days
3) appetite-less

alright.
ive got food poisoning..

din go school today
and i dont wna go school tmr too.
guess what?
i passed my english

i can be promoted!
( :

2005-10-20T08:41:00.000+08:00

talking to you just makes me feel better
tho i found out many things i don't wna know
it just feels nice to know that you are not totally taken in.

just realise how ~~fragile~~ life is
friends coming in and out
saying things to save oneself
for that person, i'm sorry
however, the rest..
ive nth to say
~~exaggeration~~ considered lies too?
two options:
to believe/not believe

you don't have to do that actually
how hypocritical.
i ~~was~~ am so wrong about you.

sure sure ..
you can say that you don't believe her
but then again
words are so powerful
that even if you say you don't believe her
you still did

anyway
really thanks
for ~~telling~~ me the truth
for letting me ~~see~~ the truth

i guess im feeling much better about letting go already

2005-10-19T16:20:00.000+08:00

my life is just COMPLETELY FILLED with regrets.
its just so simple and yet i just can't say it out.
i've ruin everything.
i missed it twice.
it will never come again.
things will never be the same again.
i dread life.

2005-10-19T11:35:00.000+08:00

i'm free
finally free fm all this shit

went to watch corpse bride
with st, ade, cheryl, mabel and xe
i wna watch again.
somehow..
..my shirt got very ~~crumpled.~~
and ADELINE CHANG JING XIAN keep scaring me with her jacketish-hands..
whatever you call that.
x)

after that we went towning
neoprints! <3
too bad xiner went home already.
if not it would be blue pink yellow combination.

i suan-ed cheryl..
..and i got suan-ed.
of cos mainly by the prof. to be..
with the 3 years finished and 1 year to go course..
prof. CHANG : )
at least my dear dear did me proud..
nono..but me as her practical?

2 marking days.
i'm gna finish the all dvd i borrowed zillion years ago.
: )
sihui jiayou.

I HATE IGNORANCE.
ESP BY YOU.
STOP ASKING ME TO TAKE CARE WHEN YOU AIN'T DOING IT YOURSELF.
TAKE CARE. <3

2005-10-18T11:10:00.000+08:00

oral was bad
english was terrible
lucky it was catherine yeo
sooo much better than sunit singh
chinese was fine
theres this sentence i ~~stumbled~~ on
and repeated 3-4 times
and still wrong
mdm hsueh started laughing
i started laughing..
..non-stop
quite awhile before i got back to normal.

special thanks to my daddy and gege
for waiting for me at the bus stop
when it was already 07:09am..
..when i just board the bus
we ~~strolled~~ to school
cause we thought we were late
then fangyi heard the bell
we ran there..
..just in time
guess what?
cedric reach the school gate first
no offence la.
who ask you to suan me today on the bus right?

a BIG thanks to:
-j0v
-xiner
-jiamin
: )

i just realise i only can tag my kind of tagboard
sad.
to xiner: yea..must jia you together. x)
my cousin: pizza pizza..shopping shopping. <3
jiamin: conquer the WWF. ( :

2005-10-16T13:57:00.000+08:00

don't conclude everything
without listening
to my side
of the story
--------

>ure were right
i ~~was~~ am just a puppet.

2005-10-15T06:48:00.000+08:00

i wish i wasnt there
i wish i didnt ~~see~~ anything
so many things happening this few days
stop lying to me
stop lying about me
stop assuming things
i am not paranoid.

i hate ~~pretence~~
and backstabbing
especially when its you
doing nothing else
doubting me
and criticising
calling me a ~~hypocrite~~
it ~~hurts~~
badly..
of all people
why is it ~~you~~?

i dread life.. ) :

2005-10-13T06:18:00.000+08:00

fivethousanddollars
aarrrghh.
takesmeathousandyearstosave.
help.
) :

2005-10-08T11:39:00.000+08:00

one msg from my friend:

a girl like you got to have some character in her.
if you find that you cannot accept this, you shouldnt extend your torture.
it is like walking to the end of a 10hour maze when u know the path you had chosen is a deadend.
the earlier you discovered that its a dead end the faster you can look for the next path and double back on your thinkings/selections.

true isnt it?

2005-10-04T09:51:00.000+08:00

i'm going to smile and as if nth is bothering me
i'm going to smile so you wont see me cry
i'm NOT going to let you see that i'm weak
and even if it kills me..
..i'm going to SMILE.

crying wont change facts

crying wont change reality
and it will only make people stare at me.
mock at me
attract more attention

this is life
pouts.

actually..
im depressed
maybe im really really [i can go on forever] weak in everything
but you dont have to make it so obvious
i hate it when somebody is so so good at this particular subject or even better, some subjects but keep saying he/she is not good at all
it really brings down the remaining little confident that people arnd have
thats just an excuse.
and i know it is ):
~~somebody slap me into study mood pls~~

oh well, keep your wonderful comments to yourself and i'll appreciate it.
thank you
i know how wonderful your are
how smart you are
how pretty you are
how ~~popular~~ you are
how innocent you are
how blissful you are
whatever it is, keep ur COMMENTS to yourself
gawd..i'm ~~agitated.~~

gasconades ~~rawks~~/sucks

2005-10-01T06:41:00.000+08:00

thanks for all the encouragement
just once a day
and i'll be just happy (:

2005-09-25T12:02:00.000+08:00

went to westmall..
..to study x)
but half the time was complaining bout my hunger.. >.<
theres this chocolate fountain thing really nice
yum yum
i want more! (:

2005-09-22T07:59:00.000+08:00

give up/don't give up?

2005-09-20T11:24:00.000+08:00

gawd..i've been failing my maths

anyway

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY!

forgot to hit him today.

>.<

-----------------------------

i don't even want to look at you

even for a moment

i feel so invisible

WHERE ARE YOU?!

2005-09-19T11:07:00.000+08:00

PEEPS..i saw SLY today!

let me relate what happened:

me, evan and mei were celebrating lantern festival.

yeah, i know its stupid.

so old still playing with candles and stuff

but thats not the point x)

than we decided to ton the night

and mei's friends joined us

weird people.

then me and evan were wanting to see NAVI..then keep finding excuses.

don't know why SHE reject HIM

and the light blue shirt. ;)

we chatted and stuff lidat

den around 3+ 4+

we went into 7-11 and saw SLY.

yepx, he even talked to us

cos we were gong gong already

anyway i also don't like him already

so no big deal anyway

but really very tired.

only slept like 1hr+ only

I LOVE W.A.N.T

going out with them always get so much fun!

muahhs!

----------------------

to my bestie: don't sad yars?

i'll be there for u. (:

i hate ur fugly attitude
it s****
as if everything was my fault
ihu
leave me alone
friends are always better.

2005-09-17T08:25:00.000+08:00

i'm going to retain.

i don't wanna retain!

afraid of the truth and your hypocrisy
where are you now?
imeu...

2005-09-11T12:24:00.000+08:00

saw weilian ytd
yar..hes really blind =]

thanks to the someone who accompanied me (:
thanks lots !

2005-09-08T12:40:00.000+08:00

i'm really not happy

why can't you be more initiative?

you know we are not close to you

you still tag along

you just changed my mood

i wanted to tell about you..

but i held back

cause' you have already suck up so much

that whatever i say won't affect at all

you have already brainwashed people

with all your sucking up

and i know i'm always being looked down upon

does all that matters?

i really hate it when people stereotype.

theres no such thing as perfect

i've tried my best

and things still remain this way

if you really like to prove how capable you are

then please, don't even think bout' bonding with us

you know how much i hate it

when people try all means just to suck up

showing of how good you can be

people had already told you your problem

if you insist

you will lose that tiny bit of respect that i still have for you

i know you can't be perfect

but at least

changed the way you are..

i'm already at my wits

i've told you once

and you just cried

saying you will change

but no

you chose to make it worse

i can't help it

i've tried to tolerate

but sorry, i can't do that anymore

i know i'm a coward by just complaining in my blog

but sorry..

i can't face a crybaby

life is so unfair

some people slack and still got good results

some people worked so hard yet they don't get what they wanted

i mean i got A2 for A maths

but it was pure luck

i'm not smart at all

i don't even bother to copy homework

yet amanda worked really hard and don't get what she deserve

i once worked hard for it

yet people don't see the effort i put in

and rather seeing the end product

determining whether i have put in effort

i guess its the end.

at least i'm contented that i see you for the last time

and msg you for the last time (:

2005-09-07T10:44:00.000+08:00

leadership training prgm was alright
lucky amanda was there
if not it will be 1 css VS 4 xmss
at first was quite fun..
we were suppose to list down the duties we have to do and stuff lidat.
but we began to get stiffer n stiffer
imagine sitting in the same position for 2 hr++?
the librarians from xm were quite fun and VERY lame. =]

stupid potato..
don't allow us to go back on our own.
trying to show that you are responsible?
*pui*

i want to go again tml!!!
cos i want to skip my 3 remedials. >.<

it was barely 3 sentences..
at least in the end we....... (:

2005-09-06T11:21:00.000+08:00

had dinner with my friend yesterday.
she told me one sentence..
made me realised how selfish i am.
it woke me up.
its either i continue or end this.
its just too selfish of me.
its not really selfish.
but rather not thinking of others
ok..its selfish.
WAKE UP SIHUI!
maybe i went too far ahead and its hard to stop.

's' for selfish. 's' for sihui
'ss' for selfish sihui.

2005-09-05T06:10:00.000+08:00

ms botak head rawks.

sihui woke up early today. (:

2005-09-03T12:27:00.000+08:00

finally got through morning assembly
cedric and me was like so-gonna-be screwed
but only cedric got called up.
phew. (x

got back progress report.
my remarks were so..
here goes:
she needs to take better care of her health
and my attendence was like 38/46
my L1R5 improved.
except that bio pulled me down.
all thx to ELFIE. [!@#$%&*#]

anyways..now was forced to make notes.
yeas..and made 10 pages today.
gawd.

cant imagine u taking ur family member and joke bout it
its so mean.

was so happy cos theres this band leadership training prgm.
CAUSE I TOT IS ON THE MON.. [when theres 2 remedial]
but it turned out that ex-cos only go on tues..
..and not monday.
and sihui will have to go for kokila and the maths test.
*pouts*

2005-09-01T13:30:00.000+08:00

teachers' day celebration today
performed with the following rawkers:

amanda
simeng
mabel
xiner
shitien
adeline
cheryl
dina
ttk
shipei
xiqing
huishin

and of cause not forgetting my daddy who saved the situation...CEDRIC!

was not bad hurs?
amanda must be so relieved that everything is over; =]

went back to jps..
well..not to see teachers actually.
to meet up with ah mei n evan. :D
watched must love dogs
and me and ah mei fell ASLP!
its not that boring..but somehow......
then we went to hongkah east and jurong spring..
yar, evan insisted on going dere..
well..we saw one.....
but her voice is damn high.
and this cat who always sit under me
somehow..we managed to have something to do until 820.
ok..i'm now back to karin. =]

got referred to NUH for checkup..i'm so dead.

I SWEAR..I WILL NEVER PON SCHOOL AGAIN..NEVER EVER AGAIN. I SHALL BE A GOOD GIRL ONCE AND FOR ALL.
I AM SCARED..

i don't wanna retain.

i'm not the one who drift apart from w.a.n.t!!!
and being the stupid "W" ->what.

w.a.n.t rawks!

2005-08-28T13:03:00.000+08:00

woke up at 7 today when i was supposed to meet ttk and xiner at 730.
its really early..whats more..its a SATURDAY
ended up ttk was the latest.

the rehearsal for chers' day wasnt really nice.
going to the hall was sooo troublesome
get into the lift to 3rd floor
goes tru the gallery and down the stairs.
cedric din manage to get in the lift.
cos dere were lyk 7-8 ppl in it..
soooo..he took the initaitive to take the next one

after the rehearsal was terrible

[[taken from dina's blog]]
okay. so we were all carrying instruments
when i heard the potato calling for the bandmembers.
and him being a potato, that is brainless and bald
he started being annoying when he stood in that
i-am-going-to-smite-you-all position in front of the hod room
while me and the rest squeezed into the nice-smelling elevator to go down.
the elevator didn't beep. considering that cedric didn't enter that elevator
maybe it isn't so suprising.
and if cedric gets to read this, i am so dead next monday.
okay yar, so we reached the lobby.
and the potato still continued that standing position
as if it was some prestigious standing position acknowledged by raffles himself and he screamed 'nevermind, take your own time!'
of course, me and my friends were not people who have rhinoceros' hides for skins
so we rushed to the room and formed one row with taikoon being at the front.
interrogation time.
potato: why didn't you tell me you all were using your instruments?
bandmembers: -death glare- (why didn't the potato die?!)
potato: did you know that the teachers were not informed?
taikoon: we already told the leaders.
potato: but nobody told me. why?
bandmembers: -death glare-
potato: and you all put the instruments in the classroom. i don't think any of you are willing to pay thousands of dollars to replace the loss of your instrument.
taikoon: we locked the classroom, locked the windows and the shutter was locked.
potato: this simply shows that you all do not know how to take care of the instruments.
bandmembers: -DEATH GLARE-
taikoon: but we were the last to leave the area! and the auntie locked the shutter behind us!
potato: all of you will see me first thing after flag-raising in the morning. all of you will get four demerit points EACH.
bandmembers: -thinking- WTFWTFWTFWTF.
potato: -scoldscoldscold- -stands in stupid position again- -left us to bitch about him-
jiamin: -shouting loudly- let's all go eat potatoes at KFC after this!

in case you're wondering who the potato was...it's MR ELFIE.

so we united regiment of class 3/3 gathered and wrote a letter to ms ridz about him.
some points, but then again, if i write them all down here, you will die of boredom.
then we discussed his murder.i am young enough to remember the suggestions we made.

how to kill an asshole:
1) stab him with an ice dagger. death is guranteed and the ice will melt, leaving no evidence of our involvement.
2) lock him in the bomb shelter (aka bandroom). put an oxygen absorber thingum in the air-conditioner. two hours at most, and he's a goner.
3) persuade him to stand at the top of the sixth floor staircase. put a trombone case behind him. stand behind him facing the trombone case and bend down to pick it up. deliberately make your butt hit him and silently giggle as he rolls down the staircase. don't forget to say 'whoops! sorry!'and many more

oh yes, and for good measure, the whole of the 3/3 performing team went to KFC for lunch.
each of us ordered mashed potatoes. most of us ordered the large one.
yum yum.
oh yes, i love my performing team.dear cedric, xiner, jiamin, taikoon, adeline, cheryl, sihui and myself. i love you all!heehee.til the next time!

thats it...best entry award to DINA!
[love you too]

wow..gettin 4 demerit points for nothing
thanks that we got a oh-i-don't-care teacher.
hate the fact that i have bio with him on monday!

2005-08-27T13:40:00.000+08:00

happy!
at least i have some achievements in maths le.
manage to score above expectation.
but chem was horrible.
imagine getting 8/40
but chem class test was a...PASS! (:

ohh..i din noe 3/3 have class spirit.
we were actually awarded champion for dunno wot
w0w!

its really sad.
daddy lose his hp.
mummy's hp got confiscated
and me n cedric were like repeating the same sentence from hokkien
'i want to beat my daughter a hundred times' -cedric
'i want to beat my father a THOUSAND times' -sihui
the same old sentence for 2 days le

jiamin was kinda sad today.
ppl are like just so inconsiderate
oh yes, u made more ppl hate u le
and we all vent our anger on taikoon hu willing allowed us to treat him as HER
jiamin cheer up yars.?
jiahua will be dere.
wo0pz
OH YEA..PLEASE BE MORE SENSIBLE
HORRIBLE PEOPLE. >.<

[[copied from ting ting's blog]]
lolx..i`m actually feeling quite Pissed off
juz becuz of dat LADY in the bus
OLD LADY
hahaz...maybe she`s OLD
and i shouldn`t hate her just becuz of that little incident on the bus
BUT
i feel dat i`m blamed WRONGLY k
and she doesn`t even give me some face
when SHE HERSELF is wrong
WHAT THE!
okey...it happens dat
after band...
me and sihui was on our way home...
187 was VERY CROWDED
we were like squeezing liao la
then there`s this fatso who wanted to move out of the bus
the alley in the bus is very small as everybody noes
she was abit gan chiong
and then squeeze me and sihui towards the people seating
then i was VERY UNLUCKY
to stand right infront of this old lady.
i believe dat SHE HAS EYES
but she don`t seems to be using it
then she went like
"ji shen me ji la!!!" (squeeze wad la)
i`m SUPER IRRITATED k
i DIDN`t
MOREOVER
she`s not like some SHUAI GE oR wadeva
dat i would want to get close to
(i won`t even its a shuai ge, cuz i`m not dat cheap)
its like the whole bus heard lorh (not dat serious la)
den i still must smile smile
say sorry
just becuz i was wearing my school uniform
and as wad the school says
we are the Ambassador of the school
(who cares anyway)
SCREAMS*
not done yet,
after i walked away
she still diao me k!
its not like i wanted to look at her la!
sihui got super irritated
hahaz...
ME TOO
but i was ren-ing
lolx...

i am pure lazy.

found a fellow friend who love twelve as much as i do.
VICE-PRESIDENT OF............i wouldnt say it here.
hahas.